o you tend to vacillate? That is, how often do you make a decision & then begin to have a mental conflict of whether you just made the right decision? Well if you’re like me, you tend to vacillate over the most trivial matters. About six months ago I realized that I could not make a sound decision on my own; knowing this truly frustrated me. I wanted clarity as to why I did not trust my own judgment & where this was emanating from. Through prayer and meditation, I discovered the many reasons why I had been unable to make decisions confidently which were mainly because I was afraid of other people’s opinions; afraid of being embarrassed; afraid of the consequences, and overall just afraid. Then I remembered a quote, “What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” from the book, Who Moved My Cheese?"
Visualizing the quote brought back the feeling I received upon first reading it. I began to think of all the things I really wanted to do but was allowing fear to hold me back. I kept thinking to myself,” I have faith & faith it the opposite of fear; so why do I still feel afraid?” I once heard a pastor say, “Faith is not the absence of doubt – it’s the presence of belief”. Therefore, I not only have to have faith and trust in God but I must ALWAYS believe in myself. Believe that I can do anything I put my mind to knowing; I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! Recently, my six year-old was watching cartoons and she ran to ask me, “Mommy what does courage mean?’ Not wanting to sound cliché, we researched the definition in the dictionary together. The definition truly surprised me, it read, “Courage is acting out of fear. From this experience I learned, although I’m feeling afraid I can choose to act and therefore be courageous! So the next time you are finding it difficult to make a decision or act because fear is telling you that you cannot do it. Remember: have faith & trust in God; believe in yourself; and BE courageous all while keeping in mind the acronym for fear: